I think the only thing that is keeping me alive anymore is music. Whether is is something melancholic as Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata, the cries for love of Serj Tankian's Gate 21, or the soothing and haunting melody of Jeljel the only thing that seems to keep me from slitting my throat is music.
It could be said that music is the last anchor to sanity I have left. When I learned at how vile the world is, I came to loathe everything about it. It has gotten to the point in which video games, movies, anime, manga, what have you, have become nothing more than time killers.
A part of me wishes I was blind and could only hear the sound of beautiful music. In this dark cold world, I can still find something to enjoy by just listening.